you kept hurting me over and over, you kept putting me last over and over. i know you didn’t mean to do it on purpose but every night you left me hurt and it just kinda sucks because i love you so much and i know you love me and i know you care. but its just like a month ago when i said things’ll change once school starts and you reassured me things wouldn’t but its like yeah things got better in some senses but those things still brought along pain - lol and the water works start. anyways, so last night after yet another fight, and another argument i was pretty much on the edge with us, but as always i caved and told you all is fine. i was wrong, all isn’t fine. but i’ve taken my emotions out of the equation, i still love you and if you love me thats great but i don’t need to hear it, i don’t want to expect it. im just going to let you do your thing and i’ll sit back. i don’t wanna give up so i’m not but i am letting go of these stupid feelings, i am letting go of me caring, who am i kidding? i’ll always care. i guess what im saying is when you hurt me i’ll be fake and pretend like i’m fine. hope this works for you, if not oh well its not like you’ll ever know the difference.
sorry for this rant, but it was much needed. my apologies.
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